Wall to Wall

Wall to Wall 9/26/2013

On the top floor

The room was above the clouds

And it felt like heaven

As we all floated on a bed of white

Far removed

From the chaos below.

We were in meeting

And she was also there

A moment in time

That I thought would last forever.

But something has changed

And I have fallen to earth

Never again to rise to such a height

And never again to dream. 

Something happened in my sleep

Because someone drained all my blood

Replacing it with a black sludge

Inky, dark, and dead.

I force myself to rise

And I go through the motions

But I am not the same

And never will be again. 

The sun still shines

And the wind still blows

But like everything else

It is strangely muted and gray. 

Today I try

And so also will come tomorrow

Easy or hard

I slog on through. 

I never learned the real reason

And I guess I never will

But whatever it is

It doesn’t matter now. 

People, places and things

Ebb and flow

Rising and falling

Ceaselessly as the tide.

But I remain

Inside myself

The only occupant

Left in the tower. 

But all is not lost

Because all of us are here

Still living with the chance

To choose forever. 

Every day and every hour

Are still full of chances

As we get to live over

The rest of our lives

May we all yet understand

What it is

That we must ask

Because I am not done

And this is not the end.