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Head over Heels 9/16/2013

Last night I couldn’t sleep

So I turned over and over

Uncomfortable inside of myself

Troubled and tortured.

If I live long enough

Something will kill me

But I am  here now

And that has to be enough.

There is no sense in comparing

One life to another

And it is a waste of time

To wish them reversed.

But God knows

What moves in the hearts of men

When they give in

And they give up.

As the eggs hatch

And the worms grow

Writhing in our hearts

Full of poison

And hatred.

One thing

Always leads to another

And so goes the steps of man

As we retreat inside ourselves

Backwards to zero.

It’s good to be alive

And it’s good to keep trying

Even though we fail

And even though we fall.

But the closer you look

The more that you miss

Because even a puppet will jump

When the hand

Gives us a shove.

You can’t blow smoke rings forever

When your roof is on fire

And we can’t just pull up the covers

When they shoot through the door.

Dream your dreams

But sleep with your eyes open

Because it’s better to see it coming

Than it is to die dumb.

Look from the distance

And see the whole picture

Because each piece has a place

And all of it

Is a horror.

Everything fits

And everything falls apart

Symptoms of a disease

For a particular place and time. 

But all of this

Only makes me love more

Because it makes me remember

Why we are here.

If the world is upside down

Then it’s good to be on the bottom

And if the good are persecuted

Then even the whip

Will make me smile.