The Weekend

The Weekend 8/30/2013

It can be difficult

To know what to do

If you don’t know

Who you are. 

And it’s hard to believe

The truth

If you have been lied to

All of your life. 

We are set apart

And have wandered the world

Traveling from one place to another

And always searching

For home. 

We are hated

By those who don’t even know

But they will hate us anyway

No matter what we do. 

So why not live?

And why not laugh?

Enjoying today

What will never last.

Eat, drink

Love and laugh

Because today we are together

And tomorrow

I don’t know. 

Words are words

But they are written

For a reason
Full of promises and secrets

From a long time ago.

The hard stuff comes

But even then

It never lasts forever

And yet we survive

And still believe. 

Wherever we have been

And whatever we have done

All fades away

Into what we do

And who we are.

If we believe

And if we ask

Then all things will work

For what is best.

I have not given up

So neither should you

Today let us love

And crack a knowing smile. 

Simmer

Simmer 8/29/2013

If I could do it all over 

I would dive right in

Plunging myself into her heart 

Where I could burn forever.    

But it doesn't make a lot of difference

If this is where I am

As my thoughts turn dark 

And dream that I am awake.

A lot of things 

Once made me angry

But not anymore

Now that the past is stripped away

And there is nothing left to lose.

Now I am free

And now I know 

That I will survive, even this 

Without a grudge 

Or pain.
  

The anxiety disappears

When you realize the truth

That there is nothing to fear at all

Not even failure

Or death. 

Nothing great will ever happen

As long as we fear humiliation

Because nothing ever changes

Without risk and ridicule. 

You can see it everywhere

Because the glue has lost its grip

And everything is falling apart

As the cracks begin to widen. 

Light pierces the darkness

And now the awakening begins

As we reel from one nightmare

To another. 

The thin veil is starting to tear

And we can share with each other

As the darkness of centuries

Can break in an hour. 

Now more than ever

We can see the truth 

Even in a deluge of lies 

The truth shines through.

No one is pretending 

And now you can see all the faces 

Threatening, ugly and dumb

Evil, stunted, and dead.

Explosions can shake the earth
And rip us to shreds
But something deeper is happening
Behind closed doors.

The breaking point is always the worst
And that is where
Desperate men think of murder
As they seek to keep
All that they have stolen.

Power is seductive 
And it makes men kill and plot
Savoring every last indulgence 
Over all that they love
And all that they hate.

They can crush many

But they cannot change the truth

As they grow ever more angry

And apoplectic. 

Let them burn
Because now I am happy
Thinking of what I have seen
And where I am going.

I will be in her
And she will be in me
All of us together
And better than we were.

We already have
Every victory
And already possess
Everything we need.

Our fire is eternal
And our destiny decided
As once and forever
Our spirits fly free.  

Choke

Choke  8/28/2013

We sit at artificial desks

With artificial positions

Working in buildings

With artificial light. 

Told what to think

And how much we are worth

Without regard to character

Or intelligence.

Something’s you can’t see

But you can definitely feel

Like the colorless odorless mist

Killing your brain

One cell at a time. 

Suffocating your dreams

And crushing your spirit

With heartless and mindless control

Over everything we do.

Forced to pretend

That everything is fair

When you have always known

That it’s not

And never will be. 

We talk more than we do

And we give, just to get

Duplicating the same mistakes

Over and over again.

Like a monster

With tentacles everywhere

Seeking more and more

To manipulate and ruin.

All for a lie

The biggest lie of all

And all out of hatred

Cold, dark, and cruel. 

I have seen it many times

And nothing will ever change

Not without the truth

And sacrifice. 

The dance with death

Is slow and painful

And our partner does nothing

But remind us

That we to, will surely die.

We distract ourselves

With amusements

Shallow and thin

While the world around us burns

Just inches away.

It doesn’t help to worry

And it doesn’t help to cry

But desperation is deadly

And just what he wants. 

The plague is here

Because it never left

But was only hiding in the shadows

Until the temperature was right.

Macabre images appear in clouds

And inside our hearts

Our passion grows cold

Growing dimmer and dimmer

Every single day. 

Pray for me

As I pray for you

Against all the odds

That we shall survive

And still believe. 

Orange Crush

Orange Crush 8/27/2013

I drove my motorcycle in large circles

Lazily around the parking lot

Waiting for you to come out

The last day I was young

Three lifetimes ago.

We walked along the beach

And watched the setting sun

Orangish, Pinkish,

Beautiful, and surreal. 

I can still feel the breeze

Ruffle through my shirt

And the cool water

Washing over my feet. 

I was there

But I was really here

And now that I am  here

God, I wish I was there.

But isn’t that life

Slipping us by

Running down our fingers

Like a popsicle

On a hot summer day. 

Back then my eyes were closed

And back then,

I didn’t understand

Uncomfortable in my own skin

And awkward as hell.

The sun sank

And left a black velvety darkness

Covering us over

And bringing you closer

I could feel the electricity

Prickling my every pore

As all possible worlds opened up

Just for us to explore.

But there must have been

Other plans for me

And for you

Because it’s always then

That everything falls apart.

It’s always something

And still it is now

As routine obligations

Change everything

And waste our time.

We both left

And I didn’t think ahead

Blind and still afraid

To find out more. 

I always had a foolish belief

That life would work out

Without effort or risk

But that was then

And this is now. 

I thought I would see you again

And I thought that, we would have

A million more chances

To live it all over again. 

My tires lost traction after that

And it took me years

To understand

All that I might have had

But lost along the way. 

Some friends remain

Long after the others have gone

But most have drifted away

And down with the current.

But here I type

Worn down and haggard

But a whole lot wiser

And humble. 

Now I know

That its okay to lose

And now I understand

That rejection isn’t so hard.

We were not the first

To be crushed

And we are not the only ones

That have been forgotten. 

I remember it all

And smile at the ruins

Because all this and so much more

Still awaits

All who ask.    

My heart is free

And it feels good to share

Because the best part survives

Rebellious to the core.

Guts

Guts   8/26/2013

Something’s cannot keep

Because they will rot and fester

Growing mold

And spreading disease. 

The rotten wood crumbles to dust

And the whole house

Collapses on itself

A paper thin facade

With nothing to back it up. 

You can say it today

And you repeat it for 100 years

But a lie is still a lie

And nothing lasts forever. 

Some people live without a spark

And will never understand

But the fire burns within us

And there is no putting it out. 

If you cannot see it

Then you are not looking

And if you refuse to know

Then you are blind and dumb. 

I know what it feels like

To be hopeless and alone

But never for a minute

Did I blame a stranger

Or beat the innocent.  

The world can be merciless

And people can be cruel

But the greater man finds a way

Through faith and action. 

No longer do I believe

Everything that I hear

And no longer can you trust

What you see on TV.

Others can laugh

And others may lie

But the clock is ticking downwards

Every second

And every day. 

I can pick on my scabs

Or I can let them heal

But what we do is a choice

And I have made mine. 

When the windows are opened

And the door is kicked in

The whole artificial world

Will fall on itself.

When everything falls apart

It will pay to be loyal

To what is true

And what is real.