Walking the Trench

Walking the Trench 9/24/2014

I dreamed of a harvest 

That never came to be

And was blindsided by a future

I could have never predicted.

When everything was lost

I thought that I would die

As the rug was pulled out

And all the lights turned off. 

Words cannot describe

What it felt like

As I stared into the black

Hopeless and alone. 

I had been leaning on others 

With all of my weight

As I stood on their shoulders

For every worry and decision.  

I was loved by many

But I failed to act in return

Day dreaming my way

Through numberless afternoons. 

When it hit

I had nowhere to stand

So I felt myself falling

For what it seemed,

Like forever. 

But it’s always easier to fall

Than it is to rise

As I learned to walk

All over again.  

Taking one step

And then losing two

As set back after set back

Filled my legs with lead.

We learn and we know

But still we react

And tilt at windmills

Just as dumb as we were

Foolish and ashamed. 

Time has passed

And I will never,

Know it all

As I have worn a ditch

Walking around this mountain. 

But thank God we know

And thank God I have learned

To be happy in the present

No matter what,

It may bring.  

We strive towards the goal

In want 

And in plenty 

To remain the same

Faithful and strong.  

Now we stand together
Hand in hand
And heart within heart
Learning and leaning
On the grace of God.