Loser

 Loser 1/27/2014

Dangle the carrot

In front of my face

Leading me along

On my way to the end.

My past determines

The way in which I move

Always in the same direction

Round and round again.

Seven years ago, today 

That was then

And this is now

But still it hurts 

And I moan in the dark.

It’s hard to let go

Of the dreams

You only tasted

Because we only got a glimpse

Of all that, might have been. 

The possibilities gnaw at our heart

And memories destroy our brain

Burning pathways of heartache

That can never be erased.

I have come a long distance

But all of it

Is for nothing 

As I keep falling backwards

Back from where I came.

What we have, we ignore

And what is easy, we abuse

But what we miss,

Is what we covet

And what we love

We lose.

The struggle wears you out

And the weight wears you down

As we bear all the burdens

And watch it all 

Pass us by. 

I didn’t know

But, I did really try

Waking up far too late

To save what I had.

It is still a mystery

The cruelty of man

And how we are soo far fallen

That we can’t even see the sun.

Nothing lasts forever

Not even this

For all that is fake

And artificial

Will always fall apart

And blow away.

You can’t manufacture cool

And you can’t force authenticity

The same as it always was

Higher and better.

The curses shall come

But the strong will survive

A perfect remnant

Beautiful and defiant.

They will never know

True love

Because all they know

Is the world

Devalued down to an single cell

And dividing all over. 

Let them have their world

And run it 

Into the ground

While we endure

All the way home.

Some will join us

And some will not

Because love always returns

What it never lost at all.