Pins and Needles

Needle                                                       10/23/2015

When I was young
I did not know

But by the time I knew

I no longer cared.

Beating myself up

And burrowed within

I hid all my treasures

Deep in the dark. 

There is no way out

Except for through

And there is no other solution

But endurance

And absolution. 

I tried with all my heart

But it was not enough

Dumped in a ditch

For nothing at all. 

I searched everywhere I could think

And frantically dug through the hay

Searching for a magic needle

That never existed at all. 

It took a long time to know

And it took a long time to learn

That love can only grow

Without expectations.

God loved me enough

To find me

Where I was

Wasted empty and dumb.

Plucking me out

And plopping me down

Burned in a fire 

Just to teach

And admonish.

It was there that I learned

And it was there that I died

Dying to myself

In a thousand different ways. 

Therein lies a truth

That many never know

That miracles happen every day

But some of them

Can only be seen backwards

Peeled back in layers

As we learn, grow, and discover

The hidden blessings in everything

And everywhere.