Allure

Allure                                                  5/31/2016

Look and see

Watch and think

Another day

And another night.

Perhaps no one told them

And maybe they just didn’t know

Skipping and singing

Down the sidewalk

Many years ago.

Only a few were heard

And only a few, could speak

Meeting behind closed doors

To meet and think.    

Led down a path

That was never true at all

Deluded, Dumb

Exposed and dead.

Thoughtless and aimless

We did what we were told

Nothing but an experiment

Poked, prodded,

And vivisected.

Tagged at birth

And tracked to the end

Funneled into tracks

To succeed or fail.

Weighed down with burdens

And blamed for every wrong

The innocent extorted

And the guilty excused.

But that is life

As it all falls apart

Built to fail

And dragging us down.   

But even in loss

It is still beautiful

Even now that we know

And even

When we see.

Perfection rebirthed

From every blemish

And breathtaking beauty

From every mistake. 

Thrown together

By accident

Like leather and diamonds

Or vodka and juice.

The tangled remains

Smudged and disheveled

Yet somehow perfect

And divine.

Everything crumbles

But that is the way of the world

The beauty surviving in memory

And seared in our brains. 

Life endures

Even though we lose

Death overcome

By invisible light. 

What we loved

And lost

Is here right now

Burning brighter than ever.

Good erupting

Out of nothingness

The handiwork of God

Shining through.

Echoing across the mountains

The sweet sound of her name

All of us together

Forever. 

Casino

Casino                            5/25/2016

Another day

Down in the dust

And another night

Deep in the dark.

What thoughts would I have

If I was still sleeping

Indulging every whim

Flitting across my mind.

I would not even know

That I should care

Lost in my thoughts

And million miles from here.

She woke me up

By cutting me in half

Giving me no real reason

About why

Or how.

But isn’t that life

That we never really know

Hearing only what they decide

We need to know. 

The hidden always greater

Than what it is we see

Most of it underwater

Dumb, dark, and dangerous. 

Most people want money

And many lust for power

Doing anything to win

No matter what the cost.

We all need love

But some

They only have the need

Giving only to get

And loving only to steal. 

Leaning over the table

They stare intently at their cards

Sifting through the odds

And lying every day. 

Always scheming

And never at peace

Nothing but an empty vacuum

Driven by a demon.

Smiling on the outside

And plotting within

Murdering with stealth

With no conscience at all.

The subtle quiet liars

We have all seen before

Strange and mysterious killers

Of fools in their sleep. 

Taking the treasure

And emptying the nest

The golden eggs of promise

That were never ours at all.

A gift in one hand

And a dagger in the other

The wolf in sheep’s clothing

Sleeping in your bed.

Provoking you to anger

And tracking your ever move

The quiet creeping horror

Smiling at your death. 

Seducing many

Any way they can

Just to prove something

No man can have.

They will never be full

And they will never be at peace

Always empty

And screaming in their sleep. 

Deep State

Deep State                              5/24/2016

On the cusp of forever

Man grasps at immortality

A treasure for the few

At the expense of the many.

Obsolete for labor

And replaced by robotics

The innocent useless

To the high and mighty.

Used up and discarded

Unworthy and raped

The powerless rubbed out

Over nothing at all. 

Hated and expendable

We see the ash heap beckon

Piled high with bones

Of human waste.

They think

They have forever

And they think

They are immune.

Laughing at the honest

And mocking the faithful

Stealing every advantage

Behind closed doors.

Planning their escape

And plotting their wars

Imagining they can win

Even against God.

The look among us

And they search out

The threats

Analyzing everything

For absolute control. 

Guiding our hopes

And dreams

With a carrot

And beating us

With a stick. 

But who has searched

Can also see

That the box is opened

And the cat is free. 

The truth rises

And is evident

In the stars

Written out

Indelibly in our souls.

It will not work

Like they thought it would

As the clock ticks down

Do or die. 

They do their worst

But it will never be enough

Crushed in an hour

The great deceiving beast. 

Three AM

Three AM                    5/19/2016

It drags on

And it drags us down

The monotony of falsehood

In everything

And everywhere. 

A gigantic theater

Where we all live

And pretend

The darkness is light

And right is wrong. 

We keep on going

Like we have forever

But no one has forever

And most of all

Neither you or me. 

Every day it gets bigger

And every day we fall a little more

Deeper and deeper

Inside of ourselves. 

Hiding in the shadows

We hope against hope

That someone else will act

And someone else will stand.

Shutting our ears

And shutting our mouths

As the few who do

Are punished

And exiled.

Many sleep

And so also did I

Losing everything

In the blink of an eye. 

One minute safe

And the next savaged

Forever changed

And wounded. 

Now more than ever

Heed the call

The feeling welling up

And begging you to look.

Fear not

The unthinkable

And tremble not

When confronted.

But be prepared

To act

Protecting yourself

And others. 

Finding the words

From the spirit

The mouth of God

Given to all.

Look twice

And avoid the trap

Acting soon

Without regret.

Lest you like many

Live in their dreams

Trading away eternity

For a few minutes more. 

Love is here

Right now

A choice and not a feeling

Earned every day

And given for free.

517476

Five Seventeen, four seventy six                            5/18/2016

We count with numbers

And we celebrate their passage

Measuring what we have

The long way around. 

Reminding ourselves

Who we were

But also

Who we are.

But sometimes we ask

And the answer is no

And sometimes we try

And are left, all alone. 

And then it is hard

To hold up your head

Weighed down by the burden

Of shame

And defeat.

Birthdays come

And birthdays go

While we say hello

And then goodbye.

I hold my son

While I still can

Knowing the weight

He will lift

And carry.

I would lift if all

If I could

But that is not a choice

I'll get to make.

Thinking back

I remember the strain

Hating myself

For falling  asleep.

I missed it all

Adrift in my dreams

The first chances I blew

Two lifetimes ago. 

Long since passed over

The bittersweet journey

Of incredible highs

And devastating lows. 

A bitter pill to swallow

Once I knew the truth

That I had never been safe

And never known at all. 

I drifted into love

Without making the choice

The kind that wakes you up

Earnest and deliberate.

I never knew

That it must be earned

Won every day

And fiercely protected.

I paid the price

And I paid it hard

Split open

And bled white

Caught from behind

And unaware.

Frozen in time

And unable to digest

All that I did not know

And lost.

Barely scratching the surface

Of a deep and satisfying harvest

The treasure plundered

Untouched

And undefended. 

Leaving me to wildly swing

Against nothing at all

Fighting with shadows

In a haunted bed.

Withered and wasted

Shrunken and dead

Unwilling and unable

To heal or grow. 

Time passed over

For what it seemed like forever

Before I could ever rise up

And walk erect.  

My son grows

Just like the others

A different generation

Of tender promise.  

A hope

And a miracle

Straining against gravity

The joy of living

Happy and chaotic. 

I'll go home

And throw my arms

Around him

Happy to live

And try again.