Eye of the Emerald

Emerald  3/17/2014

Hold me tightly

And do not let me go

Lest I fall backwards

And disappear. 

Memories must mean something

Or we would forget them all

Embedded in my brain

Perfect, and pristine. 

No one knows

And no one understands

But maybe that’s because

I am silent

And guarded. 

I am two halves

One pretend

And the other real

One on the outside

And one on the other.

I make myself meek

And I control my emotions

Keeping my head above the waves

Crashing all around me.

Water is eternal

Cool, refreshing, and serene

Holding me up

And pulling me down. 

I sit on a cushion

With my back against the wall

Remembering other days

And a mish mash of people.

Scattered around my life

Closer and further away

But always close enough

To feel and touch. 

I am happy

And the glass is cold

As I lift it up

And drink it down. 

This is for you

And this is for them

All who I have known

And loved. 

There will always be more

And there is nothing to fear

Because what we lose

Is what we share. 

I wish I had known

Because it’s made all the difference

As I have finally learned

What it means to love.

There is no more angst

And There are no expectations

Nothing but that feeling

Above and below

And all around. 

It is not too late

To have what matters

Because everything else

Is really nothing at all. 

Everything is better

And all my thoughts are peaceful

Even in uncertainty

And even in turmoil. 

Like a green emerald

Deep, hypnotic, and beautiful

Created just for me

And for you.