Black Cloud

Exit Wound            8/17/2016

Sometimes I smile

And sometimes I laugh

But in the end

The wound remains

Angry and bleeding. 

I go through the motions

And I nod my head in agreement

But inside I will always feel 

Damaged, deficient, and ashamed. 

It is a heavy weight

That I can never forget

The debt unpaid

Invisible and immeasurable.

I waited

And I wait

For what it seems like forever

To be free of the shame

Following me

Wherever I go.

It hurt more than I could bear

And still it hurts today

To be judged and found wanting

Friendless and poor.

Exit Wound                      8/17/2016

Alone, cold

And set up for failure

Sinking into a hole

Without a handhold. 

There will always be a reminder

About all I had

And all I lost

Even walking down the hall

Still fresh and painful. 

The debt hangs heavy

Somewhere above my head

The gaping wound of rejection

Hurting more than ever. 

Let it be paid

On that day of redemption 

When all is healed

And all is right. 

The darkness dissolved 

And so also the thief

Totally forgotten

In the blink of an eye.