Emulsion

Emulsion                             4/26/2016

I was born

At the beginning

Of an ending

A brief emulsion of light

Hidden in the dark. 

A spark was given

That I could not have deserved

A gift of eternity

Breathed into my soul. 

The world suffocates

And the world gives weight

The kind pulling us down

Deep in the dirt. 

The call of death is strong

But the light

Will always be stronger

Driving us on

The long way around. 

The cost is great

And so also, we have failed

Rolling over

Asleep in a day dream. 

I did not even know

And now, I know even less

Empty but for the certainty

That life conquers death. 

I was protected

In the dark

As my bones grew together

Incubating in the safety

Far away from here. 

But time waits for no one

And it did not wait for me

As the protective layers

Dissolved

And all melted away. 

Exposed and wounded

I had to learn to crawl

Long before
I could hold my head up

And walk.

It hurt to lose

But it also hurts to win

Because comfort

Can only teach complacency

And hardship

Only bitterness.    

I could have given up

A million times before

As I drowned in despair

Abandoned and alone. 

I wonder at the before

The time I never knew

Captured in stills

And the lost

Silent films. 

Distant messages

Crying out in space

Farther and farther away

Beautiful and remote. 

More lost

Than known

Once kindled

In a secret slice. 

It will all come back

From the hidden quarter

Felt long before seen

With faith

And longing.