Circle Circle

Circle Circle 2/11/2013

I am torn open
And my guts are hanging out
But you don’t have to read my intestines
To know what is coming.

Today we are strong
And we can do what we want
But time is stronger than us
And waits for no one.

Life runs along a circle
And loops back on itself
Forming a three dimensional ball
Futile and Translucent.

We get what we give
In the long way around
Sucked along by gravity
Up, over, and backwards.

We run as fast as we can
But all we make is a spiral
As we run out of options
And all out of gas.

You can do what you want
And you can ask
For what you will
But in the end
There are no secrets
Or excuses.

There is nothing like the feeling
Of knowing that you tried
Lifting with all your strength
Day after day.

Facing the tests of life
Obstacles and all
Going over, under, and around
Every time you could.

But if you have gained wisdom
Then you should know
When to charge straight through
Living like you mean it
With all of your might.

Some people fail
Because they do not know
Running around in the dark
And blind as a bat.

And some have to suffer
Before they learn a thing
Because there is nothing like the hard way
To tell you,
Who you are.

All men face dishonor
But only the weak
Succumb to murder
And hatred.

They wear a dull mask
Of arrogance and vanity
With dead yellow eyes
Glazed and bloodshot.

But here I am
And here we are
Unafraid to bust on through
And see
How we are made.

Smile for me

Smile for me 2/8/2013

There are things
That come out of nowhere
Unexplainable and horrific
A terrible fury underneath the surface
Unleashed in an instant
In an orgy of violence.

Some of them are mad men
Whose minds are full of demons
Tormented souls driven to mayhem
And murder.

Randomly acting out their fantasies
And cutting down the innocent
Burying the bodies
Underneath the floor.

But others are more subtle
And others are more cunning
Using everything they have
To carefully hunt their prey.

Sizing us up
And drawing us in
Waiting for an opportunity
No matter how long it takes.

Gaining our trust
And exploiting our weaknesses
Positioning themselves
At just the right time.

Shoving the knife in
Deadly and accurate
Cutting through your organs
And severing your arteries.

Their eyes are blank and soulless
An empty vacuum
Unknowable and dead
Sucking you in
And spitting you out.

And all you can do
Is gasp and fade away
Finally knowing
When it’s too late.

It can be quick
Or it can be slow
But no one sees it coming
From underneath
Or from behind.

Calm and gentle
On the outside
But burning with rage on the inside
Just a heartbeat away
From you and me.

Some are on the street
And some are in the bedroom
Some are rich
And some are poor.

Keep your eyes open
And think of the truth
Because our skin crawls for a reason
And it doesn’t matter
What other people think.

Tomorrow is a new day
Another day to learn and grow
Another day to love
And another day to endure.

But not if you die
And not if you are murdered
Cut off in the middle
Without a word or tear.

When we leave
It shall be a good thing
As our spirits travel on
To better places and things.

But not a moment before
Shall we drop our swords
And worship at the feet
Of murderers and men.

Full Immersion

Full Immersion 2/7/2013

Who can say
And who can guess
Why we chose
To live and die.

Offered up
On the altar of man
With our hearts torn out
Young, dumb and naked.

Ill prepared and misled
We skip down the yellow brick road
On our way to a place
That is nothing but a lie.

Some never make it
And some walk until the end
Striving against each other
Just to say that they won.

I was born
In the path of the storm
Violently picked up
And flung far away.

Thrown into the deep end
With ever larger challenges
As I floundered in the water
Up over my head.

We must learn or sink
As spirits attached to a body
Coming from a place
None of us remember.

We can grow
Or we can stay the same
Relying on cunning or guile
To score a point
Or win the game.

But life is not a game
And neither is the end
Falling backwards through space
Back to where
We always belonged.

It is not enough to finish
And there can be no winner
But rather it is the how
And the why.

Who do we go for?
And what is it?
That keeps us going
Even when we hurt
And even when we tire.

The Alien Creed

The Alien Creed 2/6/2013

You can take it
Or you can leave it
Embrace it
Or kill it.

But it is
What it is
A dying world
Killing itself.

We don’t belong here
And who would want to?
An empty vacumm
In the middle of space.

Inhabited by animals
That butcher and breed
Worshipping other men
And temporary wealth.

They struggle and clamor
And fling themselves
Against reality
Always enslaved
By their own ignorance.

Repeating the same mistakes
Over and over again
Never learning
Or growing.

Shallow and foolish
More a parasite
Than a man
Building himself up
Just to tear it down again.

But I was born
With a secret longing
A desire to understand
And dissect.

Uncomfortable and lonely
Even in a crowded room
Always searching to find
A heart where I belonged.

But I am not alone
And many have felt the same
The discomfort of dipping
Our toes
In a one dimensional world.

Devoid of spirit
Contrived and fake
Nothing but a maze of passages
With nothing at the end.

But I don’t plan on staying
And just faking another smile
Wasting my life
And wasting my time.

We are here
But this will never be home
Not until we become
What we were made to be.

Fully awake
And fully alive
Free of the heaviness
Of guilt and regret.

In a community of spirits
And like minded souls
With no limits on time
Or distance.

Free to explore
And free to express
Unlimited, unfettered,
Beautiful and pure.

Among the stars
Above and below
Stretching endlessly away
But close enough to touch.

The Regulator

The Regulator 2/5/2013

The train wreck has left the station
And the horse is out of the barn
But I don’t know why I am here
And who am I to judge
Why I was born.

Some people live by the book
And follow every rule
Without exception or waiver
Rigid and controlled.

Establishing boundaries
For people they never met
And issuing guidelines
For things they never did.

Others think of themselves
And use anything or anyone
Just to get what they want
And take what they will.

But most of us
Just huddle and hide
Protecting what we have
And pretending it’s okay.

Guaranteed to follow orders
And do what we must
Just to save our pay check
And just save our face.

But only a few ever bother
To look deep into their soul
Plumbing the depths of reason
And strive for the truth.

But not everything that is written
Means that it is good
And neither are the powerful
Immune to corruption.

He who attempts to do what is right
Must face this truth
That he will suffer
And he will pay.

But blessed his he
That uncovers the truth
Exposing it for everyone
And standing by his words.

Deep down
Under the earth
And at the bottom of the sea
Decomposing remains
Of what we used to be.

But even the blackest abyss
Cannot hold truth forever
And the good shall not be silenced
By the crude and the crass.

Open up your eyes
To see what you must
Because the truth is here
And courageous love
Can conquer the world.

Summon up the courage
To tell it like it is
Even if it hurts
And even if you lose.

For the first shall be a criminal
But those that follow
Will be heroes
None greater than the first
Ghost from the dead.

Going Dark

Going Dark 2/4/2013

There is a feeling
That many will come to know
A tightening of the throat
In the middle of the night.

Constricting more and more
Until they think they will die
As their thoughts race
In a spiral of panic.

Screaming out unknown names
And running in their dreams
Never able to escape
The icy hands of guilt.

The terrors have come
And this is only the beginning
As the earth shrugs its shoulders
And turns the other way.

Tossing and turning
Hour after hour
Reliving all the horrors
Over and over.

Even a man without a conscience
Has to close his eyes at night
Never knowing when
His secrets are exposed.

Looking up
At a hollow moon
Full of God knows what
And watching every move.

The night terrors have come
And there shall be no sleep
Because even demons know fear
And they know when to run.

A false flag is planted
And the truth is hard to find
Hidden in the motives
And duplicitous plans.

There is no need to spill your guts
And read the worms for clues
But rather to think
And decide.

But even the victors
Cannot change the times
And time runs like water
Between our fingers.

So go ahead and laugh
And go ahead and steal
Because nothing lasts forever
And neither shall you.

The inevitable future
That so many have enabled
Shall all slip away
No matter the numbers
Dead and burned away.

Tears will not be enough
And tantrums will not change a thing
When triumph comes to loss
And hatred becomes death.

In My Head

In My Head 2/1/2013

There is hell to pay
And a kingdom to await
For us to unravel the secrets
Of man and DNA.

Locked away and forgotten
The truth shall escape
To turn the earth on its ear
And open up our eyes.

The dots are connected
And an answer flickers in our mind
Cutting through the muck and mud
A moment of clarity.

A hand claws its way upward
And bursts through the surface
Covered with dirt
And balling in a fist.

The future and the past
Are all present in this moment
Developing side by side
In all possible worlds.

It’s time to break the silence
And shatter the façade
Busting through the glass
Of blind acquiescence.

Without fear of being cut
And without hesitation or doubt
But committed to the end
No matter what the cost.

To shove your hand through
Even if, they cut it off
Utterly fearless,
And free.

Fortunes can be gained
Or lost
And safety is an allusion
Gone in a flash.

But truth lasts forever
And takes away the burden
Of regret and guilt
Letting our spirit run wild
With abandon.

Nothing compares to eternity
And we have nothing to lose
Because every man must die
And every man must lose.

Whatever is lost
Is lost
But in its place
Is the larger
And the greater.

This isn’t the end
But rather the beginning
A new world
Split from the last.

Purged of impurity
And free of the past
Unshackled from guilt
And flesh.

What we lose
Will be taken back again
A real life to live
Unashamed and free.